I was so thin I could slice bread with my
shoulder blades, only I seldom had bread.
—Charles
Bukowski, The Last Night of the Earth Poems |
| Dandelion Girl. | Photo Credit: favim.com |
Allow me to have pretty damn laugh as I started to write this. As a couple
seconds ago, I just re-read the quotes which I took today in this post above
then I accidentally realized that those words are so… you know
not mean to backbite or make them as joke but funny. I mean, yeah, funny in the
real term like you should laugh when Sule throws joke in the TV show.
Are there nobody laugh after read the quotes but me? Ouch, okay
maybe I should go to psychiatric after I finish this. Huehehe. Of course only
kidding don’t punch me.
Today—after I snuggled in this hell cold morning—I got enlightenment of
what can I write for the 18th writing-challenge about my favorite physical
feature. At first, I really don’t have any idea about this stuff because, oh
yeah, I never think in which part of my body that make me look fabulous, but
the more I thought about this, the more I had to be honest with myself.
Then I’ve been chosen..my slim-and-thin-but-not-so-skinny-body-which-sometimes-make-me-feel-blessed.
(I got this idea after took a notice of my body from head to toe in front
of the mirror. Ugh, I felt worse now.)
You have to know that my body always, yes always, stays in its original
size even I ate so excessive portion of meal. Other additional information, I have
an awkward combination in diet which is I could consume a lot of food in one time—an
exaggerate portion one—then a few hours later I am going to starve again. So strange,
right? I’ve told you before.
Don’t accuse me that I do nothing for gaining my weight. I did really.
But it was not that succeed as I hope. I’ve already done every step that people
asked me to do like ate at the late night even midnight, ate much chocolate
before went to bed, drunk piles of high-fat milk, but nothing happen. Then I stopped
trying.
I don’t know exactly what happen with me but sometimes I just feel blessed
because of this.
When other girls are having their strict-diet by regulate the meal
which they eat, have a trouble of anorexia, tweeting how ugly they were having
a chicken leg in their arm, being irritate with scale or complain about their
weight that hasn’t fallen yet. When other girls think that by the gain of
weight they will look crap then doing anything to lose their weight, I always
wish in every bite of mine that I could keeping my weight off.
Another blessed, I don’t need a large place to stay. By this cute body I
could hold myself in the crowded bus like no other. I could jump or spin or
roll my body easily without worry that the whole building could tear down by
me.
This is my thin body that God gave to me and no doubt I have to take
care of it with all of my soul. Oh yeah, guysss.. I never slice bread with my shoulder
blades—tulang belikat in bahasa :))
And still, I always eat everything happily like zombies. Alhamdulillah.
So… how about you, guys?
xoxo,
Ma. ♡
