Think of Happy Things.
Selasa, Juni 02, 2015
“Ashima. How do you stay happy all the
time?”
I was throwing a big laugh over one of
my friend’s story about the stupidity she ever did, when another friend asked
me. I do remember it was a pretty-fresh Saturday morning on the front-yard of
mushola Mardliyah a couple months ago, and the only thing I could answer was,
“I don’t.”
To be honest from my deepest heart, I
am not always happy. I’m only a normal-human-being, given with an overwhelming
romantic-melancholy feeling one. I do get mad, sometimes, when the thing I
prepared for were not turned out perfectly as I want. I caught myself crying on
my way home, when I thought that I couldn’t handle something by myself anymore.
On my case, the thing that make me
seems to be happy all the time is I do believe as if it is okay to be-not-okay,
and I learn to do it.
I always let myself crying when I feel
that crying is one best way to heal my pathetic mode. I never force myself to
release the bad feeling immediately, yet I try to give enough time for myself
so I’m about to know when the right time to fight with is. And yes, when my
tears stop falling, there are a lot of pain has already disappeared.
However, there are another things I
can do when I’m sad, not only crying like a baby instead.
Yesterday, I just did nothing on my
bed until the sun turns out—and I didn’t take a bath all day—as expression of
my regret. Actually, this stuff really torture me that I barely asked for help,
you know, since June already came up but there are a lot of works that have not
done yet. To make it worst, it supposes to finish on last May, or April.
Another day, I choose to go to the
bookstore nearby by myself. Buy some books as present for myself when luckily I
have enough money, or I just dropped by from shelf to shelf, look after the
books I’m starving at and calmly read the book on the corner until the
bookstore ready to close.
I can go shopping in another verse, by
myself (again). I can try to wear the flannel shirt which looks so cute, or try
fitting myself on a black sweet dress, or perhaps go after the stuff I don’t
actually need. Yet, ended up with buy the cheapest stuff I can find there, or
if I’m shameless enough, I went home with nothing.
I can put myself into a quick
conversation with strangers. I can treat myself with a burger with extra cheese
and mayonnaise. I can tidy up my room—and the entire home as if I’m diligent
enough. I can don’t take a bath all day long. I can repeat my favorite song on
playlist, again and again. I can turn off my internet connection, tablet, and
phone, to avoid people who look after me.
And when the things go worst that I
probably cannot stand for anymore, I do write a post on my blog—this post. Try
to tell you that I’m not okay.
‘Hello. Please, save me.’
Yogyakarta, Juni 1st 2015
31 COMMENTS
Bahasa Inggris saya kurang begitu baik, tapi tetap mencoba untuk mengerti apa yang tertulis di sini.
BalasHapusOrang memang kadang melihat kita terlihat selalu bahagia, padahal sebenernya tidak seperti itu. Pastinya ada banyak masalah yang membuat stress baik itu pekerjaan ataupun yang lainnya.
I do believe as if it is okay to be-not-okay, and I learn to do it.
cukup setuju sama kata-kata ini.
selebihnya saya kurang mengerti, Soal tangisan. Menurutku itu luapan emosi yang tak pernah bisa diucapkan, jadi nggak masalah harus menangis walau nanti akan dianggap cengeng oleh orang lain.
Iya. Ah, sepertinya lebih ke stress-control kali ya.
HapusSorry, may be tomorrow I know your story.
BalasHapus*maaf kurang pinter bahasa inggris. Tak buka kamus dulu ya ^___^V
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Hi, ini pertama kalinya saya baca postingan berbahasa inggris, dan ternyata bahasa inggris kamu daebak! alias keren sekali. ;)
BalasHapusSaya juga melakukan hal yang sama ketika saya sedang merasa sedih, yaitu menangis. Mungkin karena kita perempuan, perasaan sedih, stres, depresi akan sedikit menghilang ketika kita menangis.
Tapi saya pikir kamu bukan hanya harus lebih berpikir positif tapi juga harus berhenti mengkhawatirkan dan memikirkan apa yang bikin kamu merasa 'not happy anymore'.
Intinya yah, jalani saja. ;)
Hm, berpikir positif ya. Jadi keinget mantra patronus nih hehehe
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Wih, postingan berbahasa Inggris..
BalasHapusGue komennya pake bahasa indonesia aja lah. Sorry kalo nggak nyambung..
Kalo cara gue bahagia sederhana. Cukup bersyukur dengan apa yang sudah kita miliki dan tidak meminta lebih. Pasti bahagia kok :D
Yup. Sepakat!
Hapusnice post
BalasHapusalhamdulillah, untunglah ada google translite...
BalasHapusbahasanya keren banget nih, kayaknya ini knjungan pertama yak?
atau mungkin aku yang lupa...
dan harus saya akui,.,,cara yang dilakukan untuk menghilangkan kesedihan benar-benar luar biasa...
setidaknya untyk dipraktekan suatu hari jika sudah suntuk dengan cara diri sendiri menghilangkan kesedihan..
Halo.
HapusHehehe tergantung masing-masing orang sih. Tingkat membahagiakan diri itu subyektif, kan?
Lagi kenapa lo ma? Pada akhirnya, emang semuanya cuman manusia biasa ya. *bentar lagi pasti gue digetok gara-gara komen bener*
BalasHapusLah. Iya. Sih. Bener.
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You can tell me everything and I will always read your story
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HapusHmm cukup bagus. 4 jam berkelut dengan kamu untuk nerjemahin semua kata - kata nya hahahaha. Salam kenal :)
BalasHapusWell, it take ages then hehehe. Salam kenal!
Hapusdon't be sad, don't be sad.
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Syuh! Syuh!
HapusHey, why you stop updating your blog? :( It's been a month...
BalasHapusI feel you somehow. When I'm facing a problem or when something makes me really sad, I'll go sit in the corner of my room or go to the rooftop of my house and start to cry. Sometimes I fall asleep after crying. Then I'll just go to my desk and write down all the feelings I have inside. That will make me feel a lot better.
Kind of escaping from blogging-life for a while, yet it gone too far hehehe.
HapusWell, writing is the best way to heal, then hehehe
Thank you for sharing knowledge.
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