#Day 19: The Sexiest Girl

Kamis, Maret 20, 2014

I was so thin I could slice bread with my shoulder blades, only I seldom had bread.

—Charles Bukowski, The Last Night of the Earth Poems

Dandelion Girl. | Photo Credit: favim.com

Allow me to have pretty damn laugh as I started to write this. As a couple seconds ago, I just re-read the quotes which I took today in this post above then I accidentally realized that those words are so… you know not mean to backbite or make them as joke but funny. I mean, yeah, funny in the real term like you should laugh when Sule throws joke in the TV show.

Are there nobody laugh after read the quotes but me? Ouch, okay maybe I should go to psychiatric after I finish this. Huehehe. Of course only kidding don’t punch me.

Today—after I snuggled in this hell cold morning—I got enlightenment of what can I write for the 18^th writing-challenge about my favorite physical feature. At first, I really don’t have any idea about this stuff because, oh yeah, I never think in which part of my body that make me look fabulous, but the more I thought about this, the more I had to be honest with myself.

Then I’ve been chosen..my slim-and-thin-but-not-so-skinny-body-which-sometimes-make-me-feel-blessed. (I got this idea after took a notice of my body from head to toe in front of the mirror. Ugh, I felt worse now.)

You have to know that my body always, yes always, stays in its original size even I ate so excessive portion of meal. Other additional information, I have an awkward combination in diet which is I could consume a lot of food in one time—an exaggerate portion one—then a few hours later I am going to starve again. So strange, right? I’ve told you before.

Don’t accuse me that I do nothing for gaining my weight. I did really. But it was not that succeed as I hope. I’ve already done every step that people asked me to do like ate at the late night even midnight, ate much chocolate before went to bed, drunk piles of high-fat milk, but nothing happen. Then I stopped trying.

I don’t know exactly what happen with me but sometimes I just feel blessed because of this.

When other girls are having their strict-diet by regulate the meal which they eat, have a trouble of anorexia, tweeting how ugly they were having a chicken leg in their arm, being irritate with scale or complain about their weight that hasn’t fallen yet. When other girls think that by the gain of weight they will look crap then doing anything to lose their weight, I always wish in every bite of mine that I could keeping my weight off.

Another blessed, I don’t need a large place to stay. By this cute body I could hold myself in the crowded bus like no other. I could jump or spin or roll my body easily without worry that the whole building could tear down by me.

This is my thin body that God gave to me and no doubt I have to take care of it with all of my soul. Oh yeah, guysss.. I never slice bread with my shoulder blades—tulang belikat in bahasa :))

And still, I always eat everything happily like zombies. Alhamdulillah.

So… how about you, guys?

xoxo,

Ma. ♡